I want to be….

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When I was young, I used to write poems in my diary. I guess I still have the diary @ my father's place. The diary is incomplete, one poem to go most definitely, named "Aunty". Couldn't complete it  before  she passed away. I was a kid back then. I wish I had fulfilled her wish on time. I wish I was more mature then, if I had I would have guided myself to become what I wanted to be.*maybe* Back then I wanted to be a scriptwriter, can you imagine that, kids my age @ that place didn't know what exactly was a scriptwriter. Nobody knows this, until now of course, I used to scribble small notes to myself and I used to keep them in toothpaste boxes and hide them behind my pile of books inside my book shelf. They contained secret notes. I wonder where did I get those crazy ideas from. After a while I was very unwell, I looked really skinny, lost a lot of weight, then I thought of being a model. *laughs* I still wanna win the Miss India crown, still haven't given up, not until 2 years from now, after that I won't qualify anymore. *sulk* Then came a phase in my life, when I was happy n satisfied, I didn't think what I wanted to do, actually I didn't think anything. This phase in my life continued for long and was surrounded by friends was fun filled.*smile* Now I wanted to be a lawyer, screwed my chances of becoming one, ended up in an engineering college. I also wanted to be like Barkha Dutt-the famous journalist and also wanted to be a psychologist at some point in my life. The 1st one because I watched news a lot and loved the idea of being able to deliver news to somebody and the 2nd choice because I wanted to understand em-es better. Before I could figure out what I actually wanted, I was already graduating. Finally, I'm going to be an engineer. (Don't know what expression should I be having right now!) . My experience in college, tought not miserable, wasn't fantastic either.

Used & Useless

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Seniors were bid farewell by a small farewell party. Now, sach ka samna, we are getting old..!! The terror  the last semester bought with it is finally over *. There is a long gap until the next agonizing one begins. Figured out the rest was to be given to dear BRAIN immediately in the form of sleep. Spending the rest of the vacation would be just figured inside the sleepy head i.e. in my dreams. Days rolled by, Mr. Brain got the lost energy and enthusiasm back. FB and internet kept me occupied sometimes. Driving lesson helped me wake up early. *SHOUTS & CHEERS* Daily health issues helped me pass time plus unsuccessful plans made over phone with friends used some of my time. Watching ONE TREE HILL like a maniac consumed a lot of my precious time**. Now I feel completely useless because I waste so much time..!! Complaining when used too much and whining when useless, always have been an extremist. Learning the art of an average life will come with time. Thinking that posting into you would keep me thoughtful and occupied. Love ya…,

*P.S- It still gives me nightmares.

**   - I love both nathan & haley but I love nathan more, always and forever.

Listen Up, "POM…POM-POM-POM..."

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He hates me. He said that in the very beginning. Everybody has heard it. When I asked him to tell me the reason the reason was "You like some, you hate some". And I was one of the lucky few he hated. I didn't have any issues with him. I didn't know him..!! He has insulted me quite a few times by now. Not that I'm not at fault, YES, I've been late before -3times. *SIGH*

Once he let others go and not me. Now this has become personal..!! It amused me when he said it was he who decided "What's Justice and what's injustice..!!". Powerful people often think themselves to be great. He hated me, but now, he made sure I hated him too..!! VOILA! THE DEADLY COMBO. I was all for love, but he wanted war! Couldn't he find more worthy reasons to fight for, and, a more powerful opponent??? Somewhere down the line I think he loves, loves me so much that I'm his favorite target..!!

Owning Up to Friendship

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A girl and a boy being "friends" is still seen with raised eyebrows in some places.

"A He n a She" comfortable in each others company, fear talking or acknowledging each other at public places. It's because there are people who tease and spread unnecessary things which affects the relation of "the Girl n the Boy". *sigh*


There are few brave hearts who own up to their friendships against all grapevines.

I wish there were more people like that. I wish friends were brave enough to acknowledge each other even in public..!!

I wish people own up to their friendships n give their friends the due respect that they deserve.

Matters of "Small Things"

Small things have kept me so happy recently; this has taught me how much small-small things matter in life. These were the small things which I failed to notice in the past. I wish I'd noticed them before, then, by now I could have had dozens of memories. Nevertheless, as they say, "Better late than never".  

• FREEDOM giving me the yoga DVD, to help me do yoga everyday was such a sweet and caring gesture on his part. I was really nice. I'm so thankful to him for caring about me. This is what friendship is all about. *SMILE*
  
• Pouring our hearts out to each other (my kid sister n me) while my parents are out of station and ruling our house is what sisterhood is all about. We rock. I love my sister. *WINK*
  
• The before lunch scooty ride with Paro n the helmet incident. It made her embarrassed, made Rachu D'ling LOL and I made a complete fool of myself. *SULK*
  
• GPRS supporting me at end moment in writing the script and making the skit a reality makes me feel humbled. And his advice "Believe in yourself" worked wonders with me. *[V]*
  
• ANIMATION believing in me and supporting me through out gave me the courage to fight it all. I'm indebted to him. I wish to help, whenever there's a need. *SMILE*
  
• WALKER promising me to make me taste his signature Biryani was such a sweet n nice gesture. I wish I would learn to cook as soon as possible and make his taste my signature dish. *DREAMY*
  
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  AMU admiring the translucent kurti that I gifted her was really comforting and sweet.
  
  "AMU you expect a better one this time, I won't disappoint." I love you. *HUG*
  
• The thank you note that I got from YAM n LOCK in college was sweet. The text touched my heart plus I also loved the golden wrapper on which the note was written. "Thank you for the candy guys, I really wanted to have a candy." *CHEERS*
• It was also very gratifying when CR asked me about my blog and said, I quote, " I'm not very net savvy but I'll check out your blog."  *SMILE*
  
  COMING UP NEXT: An article on PRUSTY..!!
  
  
  
  

Not Achieved Much… :)

Pledged to play "do chutkiyon wali holi" this tym…

Had fun doing anchoring and participating in competitions, it was satisfying and kept me busy..

Hope I seriously start a routine exercise from
tomorrow…this word is so damn imp in my life but it never comes until it's too late…

Why to ppl in relationship flash that they are single and then you find out that they aren't, it's real irritating you feel like throwing things at them…

With the current situation of the world, the Chile quake n the tsunami n all… I'm considering to start BACHAO again under a new name… suggestions are most welcome….

Somebody asked me to believe in myself I did it for a day or two but I'm again back to my original self…

I don't understand how can I come to believe in myself forever…HELP IF YOU CAN..!!

Realized a few ppl are my friends forever… the girl gang… the 2 AM's in my life, parul n rachu darling, soup… I hope they remain in my life forever… I also need sush n zoya plus a few others…

Haven't talked to sush for long…

Gosh!! Are all the good tailors dead?? Can't find some1 who wud make the best fit in 1st attempt...

And how I wish I was the same Alisha as b4, the talkative n extrovert kind... I'm comfortable with my old friends but with new ppl I'm such an introvert or unsocial you may call.... the fear of nonacceptance.... I want to be myself n I will be... I guess some ppl in life are so dominating that you forget yourself so you should stay away from them..!!(As much as you can, even if whatever...)

Not having achieved much is what keeps me striving hard towards getting what I want.. :)

Not Again..!!

Just now I finished a grueling set of argumentative conversation with Sms. Gola was the presiding judge for toady..!! Just one year before, it was Tims..!! And everything else was almost the same…for e.g. BO and Sms. We cleared things(I guess so). Things were long pending in Sms's mind. She said she never found the right time to share. One simple logic that I follow is, if there are things that you don't like, you don't do them. People may not like this about me, n may think I'm selfish n stuff. But I'm not..!!

I don't do things I don't like because I'm entitled to my own opinion. And owing to my true Sagittarian traits, I'm very freedom loving, free spirited, casual, a joker and independent. I find my freedom anyway, what so ever. If it's denied to me-I fight for it..!! Last thing I would like to say is I haven't done anything to harm anyone intentionally. I do feel revengeful at times, but definitely not for long. And taking a revenge or fighting goes against my dignity. I won't ever stoop down so low, ever in my life. And I have a short term memory. And I completely believe in forgive n forget policy. I guess that's my mantra for happiness in life. And I'm a very low expectations and high satisfaction kinda person. Therefore I don't get hurt easily. It's called "GALUA" in my mother tongue. So there you go…

"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong."-Rabindranath Tagore

"Wealth consists not in having great possessions, but in having few wants."-Epicurus

"The real test of power is not capacity to make war but capacity to prevent it."-Anne O Hare McCormick

"Too often a sense of loyalty depends on admiration, and if we can't admire it's difficult to be loyal."

-Aimee Buchanan

My Best Friendships Day so far..

Friendship's day celebrations started in the mid-night itself. The surprise part of it all was Appu calling.

It was really bad that I couldn't recognise her (since I was half sleepy). But all my memories with her was crystal clear. I was happy-happy from that time itself. In the morning I had plans to have breakfast at Mayfair-the hotel. I went there with Sms. We filled our stomach with a cocktail of dishes (sharing & snatching). Then we went to Pal Heights-the mall, Sat & Ron scrolled the racks of Oxford-the book store while BO, Tims, Gola, kuru n Roy had khatti outside. While we were taking the lift upstairs Roy showed us his little bit of his dance steps inspired by MJ-Jacko. We were out of there in few minutes. Then there was again a good n safe bike ride (I was behind Tims this time) for me. We had fresh fruit juice on the way. And I was finally home after a visit to Padmalaya-the book store.

Now it was time to visit Paru & Rachu. She called at 2 pm and said the movie (Love aaj kal) was over, and that she had already hit the road n were fast approaching. I got myself stationed at our meeting place (C.S.P petrol pump) n waited. They came n went, zoom in front of me. I ran behind calling out to them. Not finding me they again went zoom in the opposite direction, again I ran behind calling out to them. Finally the Tom n Jerry chase was over, they stopped in front of the C.S.P petrol pump, losing out to me. We 3 went to Mirch Masala-the restaurant. We had Chinese n it was yum. We even got complimentary pudding, it was yummy too. We discussed how confused people are with their lives, that they celebrate Valentines on every celebration be it Friendship's day or Christmas. We derived the conclusion that people lack friends so they are, sadly, celebrating this day as couples with their partners. We were very proud of ourselves that we were single and enjoying this day, the way it should be celebrated..!! We paid the bill n it started to rain..!! It couldn't dampen our spirits which were soaring high. In the heavy rain, we mounted on our scooters made way to the hill top Shiva Mandir. We reached there it was serene n calm. We gossiped, damned the world and screamed each others name followed by "love you". It was awesome experience, we loved each others company heavenly n have planned to meet once every month till we are in the same city. And once in a yr when we are at different place. Finally at 5pm we were out of the temple. Outside the gate we hugged each other and vowed to be friends forever. Thus, it was my best Friendships day so far..!! Thanks to all the above mentioned people for making my day. Thanks from the deepest corner of my heart.

DT, Bike ride & Rain...

The fateful day, 29th Jul'09...

It was Sat's decision that today we give our DT test at IMS…

We went and took the test for 45 mins… we discussed & cheated…

Finally they declared the results and BO(blog owner) was the one with least marks…

Good enuf reason for BO to behave sadmatized…

While returning we all (Gola, D-puk, Tims, Sat & BO) have gol-guppa in front of LCJ fighting the dusty winds and predicting rain…

After covering a few meters, it rained near Ram Mandir… all of us in search of shelter found it in front of 'Happiness'(opp. Convent)…

We stood there waiting for long, rain didn't stop… I kept my gaze fixed at my alma-mater, remembering past memories of my 7-'A' days (as I could see the windows of class 7-'A') which came into my mind as a flashback…

We decided not to wait anymore but move…

I sat behind Gola, cold wind with droplets of rain were cutting through my face as we advanced on road…

They asked me if I would like to take a rickshaw, it was nearing home so I refused…

Reached home partially wet. Thanks to the drops of rain which had landed safely on me.

I thanked Gola for dropping me home safely and I asked him to pray for me so that I don't fall ill again.

Sat remained outside the main gate & didn't enter, he also seemed partially gloom…

I called him and found out… I wished Gols gudnyt… he wished me the same…I hit my bed and crashed..!!

My 8 Schools & 1 College..

Hey is there anyone out there who can give me competition on my schools…

I'll explain everything but let me name them first in the order of my joining them..

1. 
   
   Saraswati Sishu Mandir
   
   I went to this school for my pre-nursery… and I was fond of putting nail paint then..!!
   
   Actually this is all I remember…
   
   And I also remember that once my father had forgotten to pick me up from school and
   
   our landlord had helped, by sending two strangers to pick me up… my teachers asked me
   
   to go with them…I was crying very loud..and they stuffed a lollipop into my mouth…and I
   
   was distracted until I reached home, perched between the two strangers on a scooter.
   
   (Humara bajaj..!!!)
   
   
2. 
   
   Venketeshwar English Medium School
   
   Here I studied my nursery and L.K.G…I remember the drawing exam, the question was to
   
   draw an apple and the teacher drew it on the board for us to copy..!!(I love that teacher
   
   & all the teachers should learn from her how to actually guide students). I remember going
   
   to school on a bicycle with our servant till he worked for us…I lost a bottle green coloured
   
   water bottle while going to school with him..then I went on a tricycle… One day after school
   
   I refused to return home to my rickshaw wala and went to my friends home(her name is Liza, I
   
   wish I could be in touch with her, I wish she remembers me too)..her mom was petrified to see
   
   me with her and asked me if I could show her the way to my home…I very confidently answered
   
   that I could…she brought me to my house and next thing was, my welcome with a grand slap from
   
   my grandmother in front of the gate..!! Since then I don't go anywhere after school/college and
   
   come home directly… And one more funny thing, then, I used to stare at my class teacher who
   
   used to gulp down dahi-bara aloo dum with real envy…I was very fond of junk food then and I only
   
   got fruits in my Tiffin box… Poor me..!! What say?
   
   
3. 
   
   St. Lawrence School
   
   Here I studied for one year only..that's my U.K.G… Those days my school was neighbouring my house,
   
   the sisters(nuns) teaching there were very fond of my kid sister(she looked like a bundle of joys…she
   
   was adorable…I am proud of her..she used to smile always…she never got tired and loved tomatoes..
   
   Do you believe it??...it's a secret bond that my sister and holy sisters shared..!!)… Our school had a garden and they'd tomatoes grown in there…so sisters used to send a lot of tomatoes for my sister(MIT)
   
   My ma pickled the excess tomatoes…and I used to take it for my friends and sisters(one of the sisters,
   
   Sister Mary, I guess that was her name. And she was very good-looking and a heart of gold..really..).
   
   
4. 
   
   Kendriya Vidyalaya
   
   Here I studied the first standard and half of the second standard… I walked everyday to school
   
   with one of my senior(Mamuni Apa)… My milk-tooth had started to fall..
   
   
5. 
   
   Deepika English Medium School
   
   Here I completed my 2nd std, 3rd and 4th… it was in this school that I cheated for the very first time…
   
   It was the social science exam..!! It was here that I played snow-white in a skit… and made a very close
   
   friend called BG…I lost touch with here as soon as I moved to this new place…
   
   
6. 
   
   De Paul School
   
   
   Here I completed my 5th and 6th grade… I found good friends in a group of girls(we called ourselves detective pink girls-DPG)…that time there was much hype about the colour pink…I was DPG-4… the names of my girlfriends were - Sana, Soup, Simi, Kari & Chandni… I loved these girls… and all of them are in touch except chandni.
   
   It was here that I found(now lost) my 1st ever best friend(my BF..I use to call her that)…those days I
   
   couldn't imagine life without her…till now I'm not clear of the reason of losing her… she posted me back all my letters, which I had addressed to her… I left them on my cupboard when we shifted to a new place…I couldn't throw them…I wish I could find those letters to just find out what'd I written there that annoyed her so much…really..!! My loss was someone's gain… she's soups BF now…I'm happy..really…because soup is one of my closest friend…I loved Simi and I still do… ok… I'm getting nostalgic…AAAAAAAA…
   
   
7. 
   
   St. Joseph's Girls High School
   
   Here I spent four good years of my life… found my pals for life & 2nd(appu-lost) & 3rd(AM-for lifetime) BFs included…I had three crushes here, out of the four(so far..). Me and my girl gang consisted of-
   
   AM- my BF(best friend), parul, rachu darling, pinkudi, nammo-the hottie….we used to have our lunch under a tree(now it's cut-STOP CUTTING TREES..!!)…It had our memories…other pals for life(who didn't have lunch with me but are close to me) are- susmin and zoya… I remember birthdays of all these girls by heart… don't laugh…I really do…now I remember pinky's also…11th Apr… I love them all..and I'll kill them if they don't invite me on their respective marriages…!!
   
   
8. 
   
   Kendriya Vidyalaya
   
   I passed(HINT-this word has it's importance) my 11th & 12th std from this school…my life here was very controversial…I was famous for quite the wrong reasons(which I wasn't responsible for and I mean it).
   
   I didn't do anything wrong... I made friends whom I trusted(blindly)…I do this now also…but of course I choose my friends more carefully now… I'm a number 9 and Gujarat vibrates on number 8, so maybe our vibrations didn't match…and I ended up having a life full of testing times(it made me a better and stronger person tough..!!)…
   
   Chaddha sir was my favourite teacher… Aayisha was the girl I liked in class…I'm in touch with her..and I'm also in touch with Dr Arpan, Er Yash, Er Adhi and Er Karan… I had a fatal accident on the 31st of Dec'06… while riding triples…I ate chicken biriyani that very night!..and only liquid food for the following ten days…ok..NEXT…
   
   
   
   MY COLLEGE-TRIDENT ACADEMY OF TECHNOLOGY
   
   I'm into engineering now…my first 15 days in the hostel were adventurous…the rest of my first sem, I stayed with my grandparents.. I flunked my 2nd sem math's paper…made new college friends..they are awesome…hope they help me maintain our friendship for life…!! That's all actually… I've still few years to go…and I'm enjoying every bit of it..!!
   
   
   
   My father had a transferable job so I had to change school to school when he was transferred. It had it's good n bad effects. I socialized more and got to know different types of people and study them. My studies were a bit affected by all this. Sometimes ICSE toh sometimes CBSE. Friendships were more on temporary basis. I can't say "I've known her since childhood or maybe for 16yrs" for any of my friends. But whatever it is all these experiences made me whatever I'm today. So I'm so thankful to all those people who came into my life and went, leaving a mark on me forever(even if I don't remember them now)… Thank you all so much...