BO targets to upload 5 new same as usual, boring posts to her blog. Effort begins. Well BO is now miserably performing on her friends' count. Decrementing one after another with no vital mistake on her part.*Thinking* Other than that BO is remaining low-key, reason she hasn't figured out as yet. BO's temper level remains high these days. Her non-functional mobile display is the consequence of her previous statement. BO loved herself a lot but these days she's failing to do so. She cries frequently, remains at her den mostly, avoids calls and makes unsuccessful plans..!! *big sigh* There's no fairy or prince to rescue her. Unfair she thinks..!!* :( * Her latest observations have been giving her a bad time. She does not want to loose another friend or get into a fight. Playing it safe is the only option she guesses. ρ(sai) can't be bothered due to exams. Sat is maniacally watching OTH. *BO does ditto* BO is ashamed though. BO hopes her decision is correct and low-key is the best option though she is not used to it. And updates on her 4wheeler skills, she's totally ruling it..!! *weak smile* BO hates to lie to herself. She has been ignoring her mind since exam. It's tiring, she can't do it anymore. Neither can she do anything to silent the voices in her mind. *SUGGEST THINGS 2 DO (to keep her occupied)* She is not anymore the same girl, does not speak her mind. Being politically correct is killing her like any slow poison. And dark circles and pimples absolutely free with it. She surprises herself with her extreme behavior these days. Not watching FIFA'10, reason OTH. But that has paused too. Can't figure out, how to be happy again. Wants to participate in public-speaking and stuff because she loves to win the audience or wants to fight a court case and win it coz she would love to that too. Guessing these are the two things she has figured which can make her happy. A lot of good gossip could also ease the pain or maybe a nice caring & loving boyfriend would help *BO in fantasy land* proof of her being a true Sagittarian. Kiddo is tormented. She can't choose one, but, finally she has narrowed down to +2 Sc. Those days of decision making were difficult. I blame few things on myself too. Like showing her the other side and judging her wrong, which helped confuse her more. BO needs a change of place. And I really wish CHUBBY gets committed to CHERRY. It'll really help my situation. People confuse romances in friendship to be love in the west. But here people in love confuse it to be friendship because of the societal pressure. *frown* BO should really ask her parents about some short tour or vacation or maybe she should concentrate on more important tasks of life. *Confused* Anyhow BO has to save herself from all of this and she is sure she will..!! *Promises herself*. BO listened to Owl City and loved it. Her favorite is "Hello Seattle". The song that best suites BO state right now is Every Part of Me -By Miley Cyrus. Catch it @ "ilisten2"..!!
