AM's heart bleeds purple!

AM has been binge watching BTS video content as she is literally jobless since her move across continents. She does not endorse the fact and clearly understands that it is perhaps a less productive way of utilizing her time. However, what shall she do, her heart bleeds purple at this moment, it is taking time to get it back to red (soon though). Though AM has never tried to reach the only celebrities she follows, the urge is stronger now more than ever because she is able to observe so many things. Here is some of the things AM was able to observe from various YouTube videos aptly linked (AM is not a video creator), 

1. AMAs red carpet, Tae teasing JK, JK getting visibly upset. Watch here.

2. Tae trying to make things right with tiny twerks back stage. Watch here.

3. vlive after AMAs. Watch here it gets remarkably interesting at timestamp 25.05

AM thinks Tae being extroverted craved human interaction more since covid-19 situation and has been unnecessarily friendly with staff and others. AM also has her reservations about a staff member that protects Tae at Incheon Airport while departure (it is just an instinct, which she can't explain). Tae's chair gets pulled while he is whipped at watching JK dance a bit. Everyone appears somber after the incident. At timestamp 25.05-25.06, Hobi is visibly disgusted with someone behind the camera. Jk appears surprised, while someone other than the members says, "I love you" from behind the camera. Namjoon is angry at Tae saying "cheers" in the end.

4. JK is frustrated from the day earlier and is extra nice with James Corden. James perhaps attempts to peck JK on the cheek. Watch here. In the interview you can clearly see the late late show host, having a soft spot for JK where he complements him leaving JK happily embarrassed. 

After all these observations and much more, AM wants to share her free advice which second to our human nature. She wants to whisper at Tae somehow to calm down and can't help but be afraid of the fact that JK might be more possessive, which might impact the dynamics of their relationship. I hope Min Yoongi reads this, as AM knows he would understand. He was clearly uncomfortable when Tae was running to collect all awards and shaking many hands. AM hopes Namjoon reads it to advice Tae to discipline him in behaving with people in a composed manner without wearing his heart on this sleeves all the time. May the heavens give JK more strength and patience. May the universe conspire to only keep really good people around Tae.

This blog is old one the AM started to when she was a teenager to document her adventures with friendship and love. It is not monetized and will not be. AM does not want to monetize TaeKook or BTS either as she loves them with all her heart (Her childhood sweetheart, husband of seven years also loves them, however is now concerned about AM as she is into this a bit too much). 

She has mixed emotions about all the monetized content on YouTube. It can be a discussion for later. While she understands there are people around BTS that are really nice like maybe one of their managers who is like family to them, it is also true that every person has both good and bad in them. It requires only one weak moment to display the bad, and it is enough to break them. It is not the members but the external environment that has AM worried and scared as to what does the future hold. She prays for a happy ending as it has to come to an end someday.

Likewise, AM is deliberating that this binge phase has to come to an end. She worried about TaeKook breaking-up for no good reason. It is messing her mind to think what the members have to endure. There is nothing she can do but to waste her time thinking about things after consuming the content. Listening to BTS music is a good thing, consuming their content is not (at least not for AM as she has been sucked into this Alice in BTS-land world created by competent media strategists). Obviously if one gets too consumed into what goes on reel without having an understanding of the real, one might get bothered, even more so if they deeply care, which is a mistake in the first place. She will probably give-up on BTS altogether for now and check on them three or so later. It could be after the LA concert or her birthday could be the last day of her consuming BTS video content. AM will decide soon. Borahae 💜

AM hopes everyone is safe and okay. Good wishes and arigato.