The not-so-good seven months of her life ! Will be over in a
few days ! :)
The best thing that has happened in these months is only the
BB and CC visiting in December, the rest I better not talk about. Well, I’ve
once again ignored this page which wasn’t good I figured. There are a lot of IF’s...BUT’s...SHOULD
HAVE’s...COULD HAVE’s... there’s no way she can change a thing. She still feels
had she been away working/learning something, things would have been different
for her. Just a thought, in present bears no value. But what is of value is the
present, and she doesn’t want it any other way but the BEST :). She has made up her
mind, and is determined to work towards it. She just wants have a life of her
own and desires that there is enough freedom to live it on her own terms. She strongly
believes that she’ll be her best caretaker.
Now let’s talk about some love. Love is still in the air,
fresh-warm but distant. It being distant is not a problem; it’s just that she
isn’t being successful in convincing herself about why to wait. She tried
asking her best friend-philosopher-guide about it, and sadly she too had same
views about it. How she wished her best friend’s views were different. Haven’t
consulted the other two “anmol ratans” of her life yet, reason being they
already having too much going on in their lives. Two of my best friends from
childhood are getting married this year. I really (3) want to attend them both
like a full timer as an event manager and bridesmaid. As of now work beckons, fingers crossed; hope
they treat me well.
