AM's heart bleeds purple!

AM has been binge watching BTS video content as she is literally jobless since her move across continents. She does not endorse the fact and clearly understands that it is perhaps a less productive way of utilizing her time. However, what shall she do, her heart bleeds purple at this moment, it is taking time to get it back to red (soon though). Though AM has never tried to reach the only celebrities she follows, the urge is stronger now more than ever because she is able to observe so many things. Here is some of the things AM was able to observe from various YouTube videos aptly linked (AM is not a video creator), 

1. AMAs red carpet, Tae teasing JK, JK getting visibly upset. Watch here.

2. Tae trying to make things right with tiny twerks back stage. Watch here.

3. vlive after AMAs. Watch here it gets remarkably interesting at timestamp 25.05

AM thinks Tae being extroverted craved human interaction more since covid-19 situation and has been unnecessarily friendly with staff and others. AM also has her reservations about a staff member that protects Tae at Incheon Airport while departure (it is just an instinct, which she can't explain). Tae's chair gets pulled while he is whipped at watching JK dance a bit. Everyone appears somber after the incident. At timestamp 25.05-25.06, Hobi is visibly disgusted with someone behind the camera. Jk appears surprised, while someone other than the members says, "I love you" from behind the camera. Namjoon is angry at Tae saying "cheers" in the end.

4. JK is frustrated from the day earlier and is extra nice with James Corden. James perhaps attempts to peck JK on the cheek. Watch here. In the interview you can clearly see the late late show host, having a soft spot for JK where he complements him leaving JK happily embarrassed. 

After all these observations and much more, AM wants to share her free advice which second to our human nature. She wants to whisper at Tae somehow to calm down and can't help but be afraid of the fact that JK might be more possessive, which might impact the dynamics of their relationship. I hope Min Yoongi reads this, as AM knows he would understand. He was clearly uncomfortable when Tae was running to collect all awards and shaking many hands. AM hopes Namjoon reads it to advice Tae to discipline him in behaving with people in a composed manner without wearing his heart on this sleeves all the time. May the heavens give JK more strength and patience. May the universe conspire to only keep really good people around Tae.

This blog is old one the AM started to when she was a teenager to document her adventures with friendship and love. It is not monetized and will not be. AM does not want to monetize TaeKook or BTS either as she loves them with all her heart (Her childhood sweetheart, husband of seven years also loves them, however is now concerned about AM as she is into this a bit too much). 

She has mixed emotions about all the monetized content on YouTube. It can be a discussion for later. While she understands there are people around BTS that are really nice like maybe one of their managers who is like family to them, it is also true that every person has both good and bad in them. It requires only one weak moment to display the bad, and it is enough to break them. It is not the members but the external environment that has AM worried and scared as to what does the future hold. She prays for a happy ending as it has to come to an end someday.

Likewise, AM is deliberating that this binge phase has to come to an end. She worried about TaeKook breaking-up for no good reason. It is messing her mind to think what the members have to endure. There is nothing she can do but to waste her time thinking about things after consuming the content. Listening to BTS music is a good thing, consuming their content is not (at least not for AM as she has been sucked into this Alice in BTS-land world created by competent media strategists). Obviously if one gets too consumed into what goes on reel without having an understanding of the real, one might get bothered, even more so if they deeply care, which is a mistake in the first place. She will probably give-up on BTS altogether for now and check on them three or so later. It could be after the LA concert or her birthday could be the last day of her consuming BTS video content. AM will decide soon. Borahae 💜

AM hopes everyone is safe and okay. Good wishes and arigato.

A show that BTS were in, keeps AM up till late!

 

AM was kept awake late to watch the show that BTS were appearing tonight. After watching the extended version of their interview on YouTube, AM is very satisfied with their savage responses, especially after the Grammy ordeal. Nevertheless, they shine like no other, and nothing can fade it -except ARMY! AM sincerely hope BTS and real ARMY keep making history together, rewrite history like there is no tomorrow.

Tae kills two birds in one stone with that response. Joonie is the hero of the movie, giving the culprit a piece of his own medicine. Suga was graceful and thoughtful as always. JK needed protection as he was melting from all the flirting from the host. 

A BTS member life is not easy, is the least one can say. The gruesome schedules and grisly antiques of people who want to take them down, are a daily affair. ARMY is one word that gives more strength these seven extraordinary people who work harder than any celebrity at their level of fame. It is truly humbling.  Their hard work gets AM thinking as to what more they can do, to surpass who they already are. Each time they surprise me by going beyond AM's imagination. AM salutes their unending grit, ever increasing wit, and unshakable spirit in service to Army! Borahae BTS 💜

AM hopes everyone is safe and okay. Good wishes and arigato.

Can't get enough of TaeKook ∀

AM has been binge watching BTS content and TaeKook videos on YouTube. TaeKook are the sweetest & best couple in our galaxy, in AM's universe, and in the world right now! Their name should be synonymous to a happy Romeo and Juliet! They are South Korea's power couple without a doubt. Their good vibes and magnetism is infectious. They are kindness preachers, which taught this broken world that love can heal! They are teaching the world a course on inclusion and diversity by living their life and being themselves. 

They might not be even aware of the magnitude of their positive impact on this world. AM has healed personally both with their music, vocals, and dancing to their videos. AM is able to be getting off of a certain medication after around taking it for seventeen years now. It all feels like a miracle! I credit it to their magic that is healing this world and many others like AM. AM is not into social show, fandoms, or absorbing content. She does not even own a television. She has not watched any TV series. She used to watch news only with her father and sister while growing up. She is now converted into following TaeKook with all her heart. In her lifetime, she is a fan of only BTS. She follows their music now since 2016. She did not want to be a fool for fan service, not that it is wrong, it is not AM's personal preference. So, she has been supporting TaeKook since last year's Grammy nomination night video on BangtanTV YouTube (until before that she was really confused whether to believe anything or not). Something ticked all boxes for TaeKook in that video for AM to start feeling so protective for them, not even exaggerating her protective motherly instincts kicked in. She wants them happy and living life however they want. They give AM couple goals too, as until now AM believed PM and she were the best couple in her universe, not anymore!   

AM was feeling so protective of them after AMAs red carpet that she message someone and someone on Instagram (AM was stupid, she definitely misread the situation). Everything was clear to her after the vlive event. She worries and feels strongly protective of TaeKook. She cannot see them loose to this rugged world with it's rustic norms. Her wish for TaeKook is that they have unending happiness, health, and love. Cheers! 💜

AM hopes everyone is safe and okay. Good wishes and arigato.

FMI in Soup!

 

Here is AM's observations after watching parts of "BTS in the Soop".

Namjin nomore? AM thinks Joonie has moved on to have his personal life (remember the nappies comment in the 2021 Seoul tourism interview video) leaving on and off flame Jin alone.

Jin definitely crossed his line with JK somewhere in Ep.5 of Soop Season 2, bringing in trouble to TaeKook paradise.

TaeKook may/may not be living together, however they definitely are having strong feelings for each other. They are kissing and telling (remember Tae Tae saying, "things happened" at the end of PTD onstage concert). AM prays and hopes they get married and have their happily ever after. However looking at the past and Joonie for example, AM's heart sinks to think that the fooling around may come to an end with disbandment. Both might settle into marrying and having children of their own due to norms/society. AM hopes they stick together, else her faith in love will be lost. What transpires on screen with TaeKook is something electrifying and unexplainable chemistry -that has to be preserved! Let the universe conspire to keep these two together, always, plaease! Let's hope the feelings are genuine and they get what they want, else, AM is wasting her time on carefully curated content. If TaeKook is untrue, AM is the biggest fool in the world.

Hobi is looking hungry for love and companionship (mostly from Suga) in Soop Season 2. Not only does Hobi appear lost and lonely, there appears to be some friction with Joonie that Hobi tries to dilute. Hobi does a good job at acting happy and grooving. I don't think anyone grooves better than Hobi in BTS.

AM hopes everyone is safe and okay. Good wishes and arigato.

FMI (Figments of my imagination) ∀

Hi Again!

AM needs to explain her FMI that led to last post. Before she begins, she has questions for you. 

    - Did you watch The Fact Music Awards (TMA)?

    - Did you watch Jung Kook's closing speech at PTD online concert?

    - Did you watch Jung Kook cook a batch of dinner along side Min Yoongi?

Well, let AM explain. AM thinks at TMAs when everyone was making a speech towards the end, Jung Kook(JK) said about missing fans a lot, JK was actually addressing Tae Tae. Jin gave it away! So did Jimin he understood but didn't express until another question from one of the presenters. Jimin looked uncomfortable towards Jung Kook taking that question. AM's takeaway from here is to mark Jung Kook's words as mostly when is speaking about Army, JK slips in a message or two for Tae Tae.

AM believes Junk Kook's PTD closing speech was addressed to Tae Tae as well. AM translates the message to understand that JK is missing Tae Tae a lot already, can't wait for the concert to get over to be with Tae Tae asap. AM also feels JK trying to slip in that wherever Tae Tae might be, Jung Kook will make sure to be there somehow, and asked Taehyung to hang in there. When it was Tae Tae's turn to speak, JK said "Paali paali pogoshipda" meaning "hurry, I miss you". Jung Kook missed Tae having to separate on stage due to performance and placements. That's how much they love each other, they can't stand being away from each other even a bit.  JK mentioned about growing up and now being an adult. Well that's true! Now, we'll get less of JK and Tae chemistry on camera. The older they get, the wiser they get. AM's wish is that JK and Tae Tae are blissfully happy always in every lifetime. AM thinks to herself, if they aren't made for each other then who is?!

In Soop episode 3, Jung Kook says he is absolutely "beat" when Min Yoogi starts dinner prep. JK then voluntarily proceeds to make Suyuk -a soup based dish. AM imagines JK putting this effort for Tae Tae. The effort does melt AM's heart. AM also believes after cooking JK texted Tae Tae to come grab a bite before it's all gone. Tae rushes from game room leaving Jimin behind putting back the cellphone in pocket. 

Other FMI from Soop episode 3 are, it appears to AM that Jimin is distanced from members. Joonie trying to make Jimin feel comfortable. Hobi trying to catch Min Yoongi's attention. Distress between Hobi and Jimin regarding Yoongi's attention. AM believes that's the triangle -Hobi, Yoongi, Jimin, though not any more. After watching clips from PTD concert AM believes, Jimin is not that close with members including Yoogi, only obliging to completing work commitments well. Did anyone feel Yoogi trying to get Hobi's attention at the PTD online concert? This is something AM has been feeling. She is writing about it here as she has entered into "THINKING ALOUD" state of affairs. It is easy to decipher that this note is only a collection of figments of AM's imagination. 

AM hopes everyone is safe and okay. Good wishes and arigato.

Figments of my imagination~

When AM listened to Jung Kook's cover of Harry Styles' original Falling, she was blown away like the entire world right now. She kept thinking - why this song, what could be the reason, blah, blah! Well, it's a great song, a separation song, a sad song. Now thinking to herself - is Jung Kook sad, why is he sad, separation from who and why. With such questions on her mind, PM (let's start addressing my partner as PM) and AM listened to the cover a few more times since it is heavenly. It helped calm AM down and clear her thoughts. Linking it here for those who haven't yet discovered the gift of Junk Kook's singing prowess. (Video courtesy: BANGTANTV YouTube)

AM still can't help thinking about the pain in the voice from that cover. Her intuition tells her it's some sort of a separation that Jung Kook is sad about. When she looked into the timeline of things it wasn't difficult to figure Tae Tae is unwell, so couldn't perform in the PTD online concert. Thinking again to herself, did Tae Tae leave for treatment for the ailment, having had to leave Jung Kook alone. Since Jung Kook isn't able to bear the pain of separation, hence the cover? Historically, AM has observed Jung Kook covering songs of artists when going through painful experiences. Is it again a painful experience that made this cover happen? Or is it a preview of his solo career? Anyhow, the cover is worth listening on loop.

This is something AM has been feeling. She is writing about it here as she has entered into "THINKING ALOUD" state of affairs. It is easy to decipher that this note is only a collection of figments of AM's imagination. 

AM hopes everyone is safe and okay. Good wishes and arigato.